"Here a heritage from the Lord: children... " Ps.126:3

Here a heritage from the Lord: children; His award - a fetus of a womb
Arrows in a hand of strong man are young sons.
The person is blessed who has filled the quiver with them! They will be not in shame when I shall speak with enemies in a gate. (Ps.126:3-5)
I had to hear one statement of the person concerning me , and it , however has induced me to write this evidence. It is possible to agree with this person with something , but I want to dispute about something. Here words of that person:
« Thanks to God, which has given you forces, health and, certainly, a strong organism, that you have many children , you know, on what you went. Children cost expensively, to grow them up. There are people who have no children , in general, there are those who has only one or two ». I can agree with something with this person. Someone has one or has no children at all because the God has provided . so . I will be agree with it . Some people do not wish to have children ,because the children cost «expensively » and they need to be given a lot of personal time. There is no time to live for yourself . And today this vexed question stands on the first place in a society. But I wish to write personally about myself. In the childhood when I was 6 years, I was ill with rheumatism of heart . I received treatment in another city. My legs have been completely taken away from me, I could not go, I remember, when I wished to turn over on the other side, it was very difficult and painful for me ,my mum turned me, I was unable to make it myself. I was very sick. First I laid in resuscitation ward , then I was transferred into ordinary ward and many doctors, students and professors started to visit me . Then I was carried in institute, in one of halls, where lectures are read behind faculty. The professor sat me at the lecturing desk and started to draw on me with pastes of different colors , explaining something to doctors and students. In some months I was discharged from hospital . I have arrived to native city, where I was get registered to the rheumatologist. Regularly we visited the doctor and she regularly gave a talk with parents, I was asked to leave and wait in a corridor. Then when I was 10 years the same repeated with me , I felt a pain in my legs and I took to my bed , I could not turn over ,when I was turned on other side, I had an awful pain.
Further, when I was 13- 14 years, we again came on consultation to the rheumatologist and the doctor told me about it herself . Why do you not continue the treatment, in fact you will not have children. The heart will not be able to sustain and you will risk yourself. Many years have passed , somehow I met the nurse who worked with the rheumatologist. She recognized me .She asked me, how was I , how was my life, and health?
She was surprised without words. The she asked « And where did you give birth to them in Kiev (capital) or in Odessa. - « No I have given birth to them in small town , where I live in Izmail without anesthesia. Without anesthesia. In natural way. And the nurse told: « Thank God that you have such God! » Then as all women, I got registered in female consultation till childbirth where we are observed at the doctor . And every time when I come to them , I hear repeatedly : enough, will you come to your senses, you must think about your health , if you die , we must pay for it . Look, what analyses you have ». I come home after visiting the doctor and I do not like anything ,and at home there is a ,children all are waiting for the mother. And after awful turns forces disappear at all. And certainly without the cardiologist, I was not accepted by any doctor. But all is behind! Through the next difficulties, it is possible to tell: « Thank the God ! » I feel myself perfectly , all children are healthy. To the senior son is 15 years (1991). Time came for the eighth baby and I had to get registered under medical observation at the obstetrician-gynecologist . It was the heaviest time of my pregnancy. I was abused, called to consultations with each pregnancy, but now they are keeping me under observation especially. I was said that if my heart sustained somehow, that was very surprising, but my already kidneys would not sustain it precisely.
You have a pain in your kidneys, awful loss of fiber, I constantly hand over biochemistry, every time fiber in blood is less and less. I say , kidneys do not hurt, the God save me, nothing hurts me . One of doctors has told: «Enough for your God , soon you will lay down in a coffin, then we shall look at your God! You should forget about the God , for a certain time. You understand, that you will not go out from there yourself , at the best you will be carried out as the invalid, you will not be able to walk yourself ,and you have seven children at home! You must to feed and bring them up. Your husband absolutely does not protect you and does not love you ».
Yes, may be it is right from the human and medical point of view, I agree with you , you are doctors and you are right, it is a big risk . But I have an alive God, to whom I serve and wish to execute His will. He protects me and guard . People who trust in God will not feel ashamed. And in our family the eighth child was already born. Certainly, I have left the hospital myself !
Once praying at home , I told to the Lord: « My God, your will is if I have children or not, if they are , hear me and give me a rest, I am very greatly tired. These consulting rooms, doctors , scandals. People say « They bring poverty "," They are not right in the head . » I ask You , show Your mercy , give me the direct answer through people and doctors, I am very tired, I want a rest. If there will be children give us the son, we have only three sons, and man's force in the big family will be more necessary. And some more , My God, I wish to bear myself, I do not want, that doctors will abuse me, I do not want, that I will be sent from one cabinet to another cabinet, because nobody wants to account , everyone wants to get rid of me in time. I want a rest. I have a family, they wait for me at home, where I should work physically and morally , bring up my children . Thank God! The God has heard me. When I was allowed to pass on a roundabout sheet of doctors , the first problem was the therapist. I say : «My God close your spiritual eyes on my illness ». I come on reception. The doctor says me : « Undress, I shall listen to you. Turn your back upon me ». She listened to my lungs, and forgot to listen to my heart in general ,and she writes "is healthy" in a roundabout sheet. Though, this doctor did not want to sign the sheet, when I went with the eighth child. She sent me to the cardiologist and anywhere, but she didn’t sigh herself . And so she did not sign till the last day. She said that she did not take such responsibility. Now she writes, that I am healthy".
I go on reception to my obstetrician-gynecologist . She opens a card, reads: « Complaints are not present. Healthy. A state of health is satisfactory ». She asks, as it was possible to pass the therapist at one dash, moreover "is healthy" has written. It that a miracle? If all is normal , I do not worry .
And really I beared easy, anybody did not turn me out anywhere from a cabinet to cabins, there were no consultations, cardiologists. Nobody spoke, that I would be carried out . The god has really stood up for me. I have given birth to the son, a state of health is satisfactory. I have left the hospital myself ,and bring up obedient children. Also I thank God for all these. Amen.
It is said in Isaii : whether « Shall I come to childbirth, and I shall not allow to give birth? The Lord speaks “If giving force to give birth, whether I shall conclude a womb?.. »
And still 1 Pet.2:6:
« For as it is told in Holy Writ : here, I lay a stone corner in Sion, selected , precious; and believing in It will not feel ashamed ».
I know, that there are many such mothers who do not have health, forces and opportunities to have so much children and means, but they have one thing - belief and hope for the God . Here I would like to argue with that person about it.